Imogen Healing

Author: Chrissy

  • What is the point of paying into insurance?

    I have been out on short term since April 8th. My disability insurance has been doing everything they can to delay my payments. They are currently 4 days late on paying me. Two weeks ago, they did the same thing. My mortgage payment ended up being late because of the late paycheck, and I now have to do money order or western union which all have fees to use, for the next 6 months. I am also NEGATIVE with bills racking up plus LATE FEES. I am so stressed out and I am trying to heal. 😭

    The last communication received from my insurance was on the 12th requesting more information from my chiropractor. A WEEK AGO. I HAD CALLED THEM ON THE 10TH to let them know AHEAD of time that I won’t be returning at the end of this approved (2 weeks) amount of time. They didn’t request until literally right before the weekend, when everyone is closed for 2 days. They got the forms back on Monday, and still nothing. I called yesterday to find out what’s going on and there was no update on payment. Paperwork takes 3-5 days to process. UMMMM… it took less than a day to process my claim to go out in the first place. I explained that I called over a week ago to avoid this and have done everything I’ve been asked to do ASAP all just for them to drag their feet.

    WHAT IS THE POINT OF INSURANCE IF YOU’RE GIVEN EVERY EXCUSE IN THE BOOK TO NOT PAY OUT

    Health, car, mortgage, home, etc. Why are we REQUIRED to pay insurance if all they do is take our money, with little in return?

    Health insurance companies murder billions of people a year.

    Car and home insurance… You need to use your insurance that you’ve been overpaying into? Punished. Premium increased and less eligibility to get a different provider.

    You got hit by someone with no insurance? Premium increased and going to give you a hard time finding ways to heal.

    More and more people are dropping insurance. I’m almost to that point but I know with my luck, I’d get into an accident the second I cancel.

    I don’t know what to do. I’m losing my mind. I physically can’t work right now, and I can’t get another job because I’ll get fired. I cannot keep borrowing money from friends and family, and definitely cannot open and use more credit cards or loans. SOMETHING’S GOTTA GIVE. THE PEOPLE ARE DROWNING.

    Oh, and our current president wants to get rid of paid holidays. 😊

  • I had a deja vu moment

    I was doing my usual bumming around this morning with the dogs and scrolling through social media. I came across a hilarious post and thread in Dull Men’s Club titled “Escape from Taiwan” on Facebook.

    As I was reading the comments, I realized I was in a deja vu moment. I remembered that moment before and the person I was talking to and exactly how that conversation went. Except, that person doesn’t remember any of that haha. Has anyone ever experienced such intense deja vu like this?

    The person in the conversation I had asked me what was different this time around. And as I was explaining this vision to said person, I know I sounded crazy but it dawned on me as I was telling them that this was the Universe speaking to me, telling me that it’s time to take stock. Time to compare the two moments in time, see how much I’ve grown (and I’ve grown a ton since the previous moment, which was a year ago). Maybe it’s from a past life or a parallel Universe connection, I don’t know… But that’s the message I’m going to take from it.

    Since last year, I have done a lot of healing. I have learned to slow down, truly love myself and let go of what all the bullies in my life have made me feel, sit through my feelings, accept them, acknowledge them, speaking UP AND ADVOCATING for myself, ask for help… I have grown a lot and I love the quote “you’re living the life you prayed for 5 years ago. ” And I hope that continues to resonate as I get older.

  • Stop to smell the flowers, dangit!

    I have been looking through old pictures and videos, and I’m so glad I did it. I started out deleting videos that are meaningless and taking up space, and ended up finding videos I forgot about or shot with intention of editing and never did. I used to take pictures of EVERYTHING, especially when I got my first 35mm digital camera for my 16th birthday nineteen years ago. Somewhere along the way, I started taking less and less photos. Maybe because it got really expensive to print them, and they just get lost in albums online. It also got to the point where I’d take so many pictures of everyone and everything around me, but no one bothered to include me in pictures, as well. We also have to pay for every little thing, such as storage, editing programs, etc.

    I never fully stopped taking pictures, but they became more limited. I know this is because of the people I surrounded myself with throughout the last 10 years. This year is different, I have put myself first for the first time in my life and things are coming together. Finding these precious videos and photos have just reminded me that I need to start taking pictures again. My phone is all dogs, nature, and selfies alone. I used to have so many pictures WITH people, but people don’t really like to stop to take pictures anymore. There’s always that fear that the way we look will be exposed.

    WELP
    GUESS WHAT?

    You look the way you look, and you need to come to terms with that. In fact, your parents, your significant other/partner, your best friends… have all seen you at your worst and still love you. Every picture of you that is taken is how you look, and what people literally see when they’re with you. Stop being so ashamed to look anything other than “perfect and flawless” when we all have flaws that make us unique, who we are, and dang lovable!

    IMPERFECTION IS PERFECTION.
    STEP INTO WHO YOU TRULY ARE.
    I LOVE YOU JUST THE WAY YOU ARE.
    I SEE YOU. I HEAR YOU. I LOVE YOU.

  • Out of boredom comes creation

    This is most I’ve been truly bored in my life. Up until this month, the gym and doing physically active things were my main outlet. I am currently on full body restrictions with only 10 approved daily exercises lol. I can do house chores in small increments. I’ve been playing Legend of Zelda: Tears of the Kingdom. I have to set a timer to get up every 20 minutes. Sitting at the table for an amount of time hurts. I’m thankful that I still have mobility and can walk around, but nature don’t grow fast enough for me! I’ve had to borrow money lately because insurance and some unnecessary spending habits. That all ends this month! I cannot live with this barely making it financially stress, and there are changes that I can make.

    Anyway, I’ve always told people that boredom is a great blessing in disguise because that’s when you start to experiment with things that are available and with your skills. You start to dabble in different areas of life, maybe take some classes online, paint with no vision in mind, plant some seeds and see how it goes, learn a new instrument, the list goes on and on…

    I know this whole being out on short term thing is a big lesson for me.

    1. I need to ask for help. I can’t do it all, especially if I want to heal.

    2. Even though I have a high pain tolerance, I do not need to push through it until my body can’t do anything anymore. I have too many things to do in my lifetime. I will listen to my body when things feel out of whack, physically or intuitively.

    3. Use the down time to learn some new things that are not physical. I do love learning especially when it’s something that really intrigues me. College ruins that curiosity, with all the deadlines and grades.

    The hard part is patience and continuing to practice every day with teeter-tottering motivation. 🫨📈📈📉📈📉📈📈📉📉📈📉📈📈📉

    What do you do when you get bored?

  • Can we talk about motivation?

    Motivation, for me, seems to come in waves. One day, I’m so positive everything will come together and work out for the best, better than I’m able to fathom at the moment. The next, meh, I just want to stay in bed all day and bedrot (a new term I’ve learned). I know I’m worth a lot more than what my life is right now, but I also know that my dreams/goals are things that require me to work on myself. I am willing to do that 100%. I tend to get impatient, it is an instant gratification world. Instant gratification is a horrible, slow mental suicide. It’s also very hard to break from and I feel like I am border-lining being a hoarder haha. I am trying to be less materialistic, I’ve stopped impulse buying silly gag items and I try not to buy new. Bringing things back to life gives you a project to do and a sense of reward when you’re done.

    It doesn’t have to be perfect.

    Afterall, imperfection is perfection.

    Everything these days are made so cheap and meant to break so the consumer has to keep buying more. Used items are so much nicer, last longer, and have character that make them unique in a world where everything is mass produced. A lot of the things I have now are art supplies and family/childhood sentimental things.

    Depression has a lot to do with it and causes me to shrink into the comfort of my home and I don’t leave for days at a time, if I’m not working or even when I’m working I’d call out. I am happy to say that these periods get shorter and shorter, and I feel stronger every time I come back from the dark.

    Cleaning up clutter, tackling laundry, dishes, the usual chores, and taking it baby steps at a time, while being gentle and kind to myself reminding myself that I have been in worse slumps and through really hard situations, I should be proud of who I am and where I am. I may not be where I thought I’d be at 35, but I am dang proud of how far I have come.